I wonder if how we perceive our reality in this universe is the equivalent to how an indoor cat perceives and rationalizes what they see outside the window. I’m not sure if cats are capable of rationalizing, at least, not to the same capacity that humans are. Their consciousness is not as advanced as ours, but unfortunately ours may not be even close to reaching the full potential of what a consciousness can be.
For almost a year now I feel as though I’ve been a sponge designed to soak in all I can relating to astronomy. For most of my life I have applied myself to the arts, so there is a bit of a re-wiring going on in my brain. If you had asked me a few years ago if I could ever be fascinated by astrophysics, planetary sciences, chemistry, and mathematics I probably would have looked at you funny. I think some fundamental component that makes me who I am has shifted/grown dramatically this year. I am a lot less caught up in my own bubble, or can at least see through it more easily.
I suppose you could say I went through a personal cataclysm late last January, and it altered me in ways that make it impossible to go back to the way I was before. I am grateful for that. I decided almost immediately after, to not only start learning about all that I could relating to astronomy, but to also undertake a project that seems to just keep growing. I was fierce about maintaining that this project be a joy to work on and at my own pace, without external pressure to see it through to completion. As a consequence, only three other individuals know about what I began working on almost a year ago. I am overwhelmed and grateful for their enthusiasm and support. I probably will tell others about it as it becomes more developed, but all in good time.
You may be wondering why I am saying anything at all about this mysterious project if I don’t intend to divulge what it is yet. I am no longer producing as much art or taking as many photographs as I used to, and as a result, feel as though I have less to share through my blog. So for those who care to know, my creativity is more potent than ever, but it’s mainly being absorbed into this project.